Obssessed 2006

 

Writing Paper

Published December 22, 2006 Life Leave a Comment

I am supposed to hand in my paper today, but until now I haven't started working on it. What should I do? Whenever I open the fire, I suddenly lose all the courage to hold on it. Why I am such a slacker?

Seriously I suspect I have got same psychological problems. I even built a group devoted to bipolar disorder in douban. Is it just procrastination or it is some hormone imbalance in my brain? How serious it is now? How far could it go?

My friend KYD is also facing the same problem. But she seems cycling between hyperactive and hypoactive period, and when she is low, I mean it is really LOW. Does it mean that everyone must go through a particularly difficult time in our twenties, like a post-adolescent period?

I know that I am currently obsessed by music. But it could not be the true reason behind my changes. I am obsessed by it because of some subtle changes going on in my brain, which also causes me to procrastinate endlessly.

What exactly happened to me? I am becoming someone that I myself don't understand. Why do I live in such a way? Why am I living? What is the meaning of life?

This is my first post as my brand new alter-ego, “Phenomena1Cat”. The name was also a whimsical song from The Kinks.